Monday 16 December 2019

7 years after 16 December gang rape: Did anything change?


Dec. 2012: A 23-year-old student is beaten and gang-raped on a moving bus in the capital New Delhi and later dies of her injuries. Five men and a juvenile are arrested - four of the men have been sentenced to death and one hanged himself during the trial. The juvenile was freed after completing three years in a reform home.
Jan. 2018: An 8-year-old Muslim girl is drugged, held captive in a temple and sexually assaulted for a week before being strangled and battered to death with a stone in Kathua town in northern India. Six men, including a Hindu priest and three police officers, were convicted of the crime. Three were given life sentences.
Representation image, Google
Jul. 2018: Eighteen men are charged in Chennai with repeatedly raping a 12-year-old girl over a seven-month period, sedating her with drugs and then taking her to vacant apartments in the block to assault her.
Nov. 28, 2019: The charred remains of the veterinarian are found under a flyover near Hyderabad. Four men are arrested on suspicion of gang-rape and murder. All 4 of them were killed by Police in encounter
Dec 5, 2019: A 23-year-old rape victim is set ablaze by a gang of men, including the alleged rapist, as she made her way to court to attend a hearing in the case, in Unnao district of Uttar Pradesh, police said.
Dec 6, 2019: Dead body of an 8 year old is found in a park in Barola village, Noida. After 2 days of discovery of body, police came to the park to do their preliminary process.
Most of the people who watch television, scroll through different social media handle or still read newspaper would be well aware of the rape cases mentioned above except for the last one! Why? Good question with a very easy answer because that was not covered by media houses even though most of the popular media houses reside in Noida. Does that make this incident less cruel than others – No it doesn’t but it brings out the reality of current scenario in our country that it is indeed becoming a RAPE REPUBLIC.
Today is 16 December, a day when a girl like me went for a movie with her friend but didn’t return back to her home. She was raped, brutally assaulted and thrown at some sideways after 5 monsters thought she is as good as dead. She was lying there for many hours, so many vehicles ran past her no one stopped for even a second to see or help! It’s been 7 years to that incident, her parents still are waiting for justice and closure while the criminals are staying in Tihar jail filing taking turns in filing mercy pleas in court; not to forget one of them got away because wow he wasn’t an adult!
I remember standing in the newsroom when this news broke; my first instinct was that this is worst form of violence against women – it is the first thing that should go on air! But I was stopped – why because we were a regional news channel and this is something that happened in New Delhi so why bother? The second time I heard my senior say that the girl shouldn’t be out at night along with her boyfriend and god knows what she was wearing to attract strange group of men. I couldn’t help but broke down at the indifferent and casual take on brutality against a girl who stepped out of her home!
Why am I talking about what happened 7 years back? Because as much as anyone in this world wish to believe that we are progressing, the girls are standing along with boys, the girls are doing what boys could do or throw this development tantrums – I don’t see any change. There is no denying fact that the outrage over the Nirbhaya rape case prompted legal and administrative policy changes, this had little-to-no impact on arrests and convictions for rape, molestation and sexual harassment in Delhi.  According to the National Crime Records Bureau (NCRB) data available for 2017, more than 32,500 cases of rape were registered with the police in 2017, about 90 a day. The total number of rape cases that went to trial in that year was 1, 46,201 but only 5,822 of them resulted in conviction – 32.2 % despite the stringent laws in the aftermath of the incident. This excludes all those cases that goes unreported and undetected.
I feel helpless, angry and agitated. It pains me to see same circle of events happening after Hyderabad case as Nirbhaya – public outrage and demand for hanging rapists, politicians taking advantage, Facebook activism, media debating and re-debating on how safe women are? And toxic masculine mob culture of killing the rapists as the instant punishment and oh yes film industry cashing in by making films like Mardaani 2 or actors like Akshay Kumar voicing their opinion on twitter demanding strict laws while using sexist and rape jokes in their movies!
I feel outraged because dear fellow country people who proudly calls Nation as Bharat Mata why do you need to make your presence visible only when a rape case becomes viral; do you engage in pseudo activism so that you can let go off your guilt of being a bystander when a girl was being harassed or because you are the part of toxic patriarchal system; why don’t you raise your voice when you see gender stereotypes being forced in families, workspace or in public domain! Isn’t it you who commented on what dress that girl was wearing, weren’t you the one who said that why she is going late in evening, or what is doing with that boy in the college or in work? It’s so easy to put blame on society, law or police that we forget to look inside us! Rape culture is not something that has come out of blue, it has its root inside us; we are the society!
Interestingly while our leaders are busy burning down our country in the name of citizenship bill – No comment or statement has come out of their mouth on violence against women. Probably this doesn’t help their vote bank; one of the women leaders have been listed in the Forbes list of most powerful women in the world but we have girls and women being subjected to molestation, harassment and rape like it is part of our goddamn life.    
I constantly wonder what has changed post Nirbhaya case!  India was named as the most dangerous country for women in terms of sexual violence last year and each day brutality is reaching another level despite so called laws – why are we as people, society and Nation becoming regressive with each passing moment. When are we going to open our eyes and understand that Rape is epidemic with roots lying into patriarchal system that we are happily part of.

The hue and cry at the time when a rape case becomes viral won’t eradicate gender based violence; we need measures at all level: as people, as lawmakers, as politicians, as media person and as society! Stop being a bystander, raise your voice right at the beginning because if anyone can stop this circle of violence it is us.   

Saturday 14 December 2019

Mardaani 2: Disappointing, frivolous and misogynist approach towards rape culture


The film engages on gender issues and rape culture in a very populist, mechanical and Bollywood way; where concern of the film lies more on dwelling in the psyche of the criminal and tactics than actually addressing the issue of gender discrimination and violence; reducing it to typical cat and mouse kind of crime thriller!

Mardaani sequel brings back SP Shivani Shivaji Rao back in action; this time tracking down a serial killer and rapist in the student hub of Kota. Rani Mukherjee continues to play cop in a solid, badass, straight forward way where the director tries to bring her emotional side but it vanishes as quickly as it comes on screen! And for a cop as smart as her (made very obvious in the beginning of the film), it is hard to digest that she can’t see the villain who is hiding in the plain side.

Taken from google
According to me, the most irking and unacceptable part of the film was using rapist as the lens to the movie – he talks to the audience whenever he is about to commit heinous crime; is he making audience his friend, confidante or implicating that society at large behaves this way? – These mixed messages actually succeeds in blowing the entire façade of gender conversation this film tries to build. According to government data, more than 32,500 cases of rape were registered with the police in the year 2017 that means 90 cases a day forget about the unreported cases of rape! It has been 7 years of Nirbhaya Rape case, about 10 days when a doctor was raped and burnt in Hyderabad and more recently 8 year old raped, killed and her body was left in pieces in a park in Noida. While our country is going through this unimaginable social crisis (it was always there but now it’s all out in the open), cinema could have been a powerful tool to bring out the stories, and initiate a process of dismantling toxic masculinity and mindsets. But here we are – cashing on the most painful realities of rape culture to bask in the glory of cinematic mockery.

I refuse to hear this MONSTER gloat about his hideous context of being offended by independent, out spoken and smart women and subsequent vendetta against them.
 Another disappointment was Rape being portrayed as psychological aberration, an inheritance to perversion rather that power play of patriarchy – for how long cinema will try to justify or reason with criminals behind the curtains of mental instability. The story does more harm than good- it fails to address gender based violence as a result of patriarchal mindset that is deep rooted in the society and each of us; secondly stereotyping people with mental health issues. I am sorry but this just says that if someone has some psycho social disability- the first thing that comes to their mind is raping a women and honestly this age old excuse is definitely too old  and distasteful.

Mardaani 2 is a futile attempt to address gender norms in the society; instead of debunking stereotypes the story ends up emphasizing them for example the rapist intends to rape certain kind of girls – girls who are ‘out spoken’ ‘smart’ or  ‘taking over men’! What do you think would happen if girls – young and adolescents sees this? 

There are few scenes that could have hit the nerve of the audience for example- Shivani Rao conversation with his senior talking about how equality is still a distant dream and society being too aversive when it comes to participation and sharing in the male and female dynamics; another one where the forensics ask her to bring justice for the girl and number of people being interviewed. Unfortunately, these conversations look too mechanical, devoid of emotions and feelings and just too preachy.

While the first movie of this franchise seemed realistic; where we saw the protagonist being actual badass, she keeps fighting while her family was put into danger. She works her way to dismantle the nexus of sex trafficking! But the sequel disappoints because we miss badass Shivani Shivaji Rao, she is more of hollow words than actual action! She appears and disappears too soon for one’s liking leaving audience in plain distaste as we keep seeing criminal smiling and plotting his way to rape.  
The film also justifies subverting the law, which seems to be a famous notion at this point in time. Shivani is shown beating up men in an almost vindictive trance. The anger can be felt in every frame but the picture it shows is alarming, not only because it’s quite graphic but because it’s sending out a dangerous message — kill the rapists, because that’s the only way they’ll stop.
This is an example of what will not solve the issue of violence against women. This film fails to tap into or channelize the feeling of fear, anger or loathing towards rape culture and leaves with an unsettling emotion as to where we stand? It is evident that from rape capital ‘Delhi’ now we have become ‘RAPE DEMOCRACY’ but our films still chooses a naïve and frivolous approach to talk about this issue making me wonder to what length this regression will go if not that we are at the bottom of it.

Tuesday 3 December 2019

Challenging violence on each step and still standing tall with hope sand dreams!

“My daughter was killed by her husband, he strangled her. She didn’t want to go, I could have stopped her. She had dreams! We are fighting a court case against her husband. I have to run here and there. I try to stay positive but she won’t come back!”

As part of #16daysofactivism, we collaborated with My Perch to co-create a sharing space for women from Barola community, inviting them to share their experiences of gender based violence, pain and struggles of womanhood and how do they gather strength to face these challenges on daily basis. We have worked with women from different age groups, different geographical locations and class for example women from rural area in Baghpat, women from middle class in Dwarka. However this set of women were lot different and so it was important for us to understand their context in order to create a space where they feel safe enough to share!

Most of the women who live in Barola have come from different villages and towns of India. Many of them live with very violent husband who drinks alcohol, beat their wives and children and don’t give a penny in the family. Some of them have husband who has another family with other women, they still chose to live with them despite the fact he just boss around and contribute nothing. Some of them are single as either their husband have died or left. Women living in the slum community are very vulnerable to all the forms of violence, the importance of having a male figure in their family has a totally different objective – one being protecting them from other men in the community to jump on them or their children.



So whether their husband is violent or living with other women, they stick with them so that other men don’t look at them as prey! It’s a very twisted and challenging situation. These experiences have made some of them so hard that now they don’t give a damn about men. They beat the men who try to fight them and also indulge in drinking. Unfortunately even then men don’t stop, they take advantage of them by pointing fingers, and their own children despise them leaving them distressed. This set of women showed a clear intersection of gender and class where the latter dominated their identity making their lives more difficult.



Keeping in mind the context and vulnerability we designed a sharing space where they could share their experiences of being a woman living in poverty, experiences of violence and what keeps them going despite all these challenges!



The session began with a brief introduction, what will happen in next 2 hours and ground rules to make this space ambient for sharing. In the first activity, the participants were invited to share their names and one quality. With the shy smiles, giggles and reluctance some shared and few just stopped after saying their names. The answers were heartwarming like ‘I love dancing’, ‘I enjoy doing funny things’, ‘I like doing fun things with kids so I come here too’



This was followed by game of ‘wolf and sheep’ where women participated with uninhibited enthusiasm. It was amazing to watch them play sheep and get away from the circle of wolf with strength and wit, at the same time playing wolf and not letting sheep get away!



In the next activity, the participants were invited to share one thing that they hear constantly or randomly because they are woman:
‘You stay at home! What do you do? Same thing is asked not just by husband but also kids.’
This statement actually broke the barrier that was stopping few of them from actually sharing. Every woman in the circle agreed unanimously that they do all the household chores, take care of family in every possible way and their work never stops but all they hear is what do they actually do staying at home?


‘Why are going out, what will you do outside home?’
‘I don’t like staying at home at all. It’s boring and annoying’
‘I had to always hear taunts and comments, whether it is from my in laws, husband or children. No one seems to be happy with what I do!’
‘You always think about yourself. So self-centered, don’t care about anyone else!’

‘There are times when we work outside at our jobs. Even for small mistakes, I am scolded, it becomes more evident because I am a woman. People just assume that we don’t have brains or are incapable because we are women. It is frustrating and I do get angry but we don’t even get space to vent out even in our homes. Why? Because woman are not even allowed to express anger! I am a human being, tough situations at work and home can make me angry.’


The discourse on gender based violence began with the question ‘Can you share any incident where you did something when you didn’t want to?’

‘What happens in villages is that they want a girl who is from well to do family, is educated and beautiful. Despite all these criterion, they want the girls to do all the chores in the household, most of the work is done by hand like making flour from wheat by hand swing, making cow dung cakes etc. I never wanted to do this but I had to because I was married in a rural area.’


‘My 17 year old son beats me. He is always on phone who gets angry on very minor things and loses his cool. He was alright till last year, but don’t know what happened! I keep my distance and he is strong that I just can’t save myself. I try to calm him down. But sometimes all the situations just get too much. I feel like leaving everything and just run away. Many a times, I just want to hang myself and get rid of all these miseries’

‘I was 14 years old when I was married off. I didn’t even know what marriage was at that time and neither was I expert in cooking. So for every small or big mistake, my mother in law used to scold me, taunt me and blame my maiyka for not teaching me anything. Days passed and my husband bought us here, we had children one after another. We didn’t even have money to fill our stomach, my husband was doing nothing just drinking and assaulting me. There was time when I went for entire week eating plain rice and that was the time I realized it was enough if I don’t take charge then we would be stuck like this forever. I wasn’t educated somehow I got a job for Rs 1500, my kids were really small, so while I used to be at job, they used to roam around here and there with no one to look after. Those were really tough time, but I decided that my life was better here, so I would do anything in my power to live here and raise my kids in better condition. Now I earn 12000, we are so much better leading a better life. My kids are educated and doing well! I just wish that my daughter find a better sasural and groom’


Following this, we invited them to share on ‘Have you ever challenged someone or any situation where you were forced to do something that you didn’t want to do?’

A very inspiring and courageous story was shared by a woman –
‘There was a fight in my home, everyone was running towards me to beat me – my husband, my in-laws and those who were not coming to beat me were standing like statue just watching and doing nothing. That moment I said enough is enough, if anyone dares to raise hand, I will do the same. If I am gonna die today then I will make sure others die along with me. I fought, retaliated in every possible way. My brother came to rescue me and so I left my in laws house for good with a very clear thought that I will never come back here. I worked hard, made living for myself and my kids. I still go back to my town for work, but I don’t even look at them. My ex-husband loiters around does nothing and here I am! I am not scared anymore.’


The smile and confidence on her face says so much about her struggles and what she has achieved. With all this, we engaged on  gender based violence and emphasized again and again as to how it is not their fault that they have been violated but the fault of the person who did violence. It was equally crucial to state that as woman we have been forced to internalize violence and think that it’s our fault or that we are not good enough for people because of which you end up believing it. So, we as women can stop this by understanding that we can and we should say NO to the violence!

It was exhilarating to hear how voices of women became loud and louder with each time they said that ‘THEY WON’T TOLERATE GENDER BASED VIOLENCE IN ANY FORM’


There was this lady with a kid, she was nervous and was kind of reluctant to sit in the circle. She wanted to go early saying that she has lot of work at home including washing dishes. But she never left, instead kept listening to what we all were sharing and I saw her crying many a time. So it’s not really important that everyone should share in form of words, because people have different form of expressions. Her voice was the loudest when we were saying No to the violence!


We closed the session by inviting women to share their dreams one after another while all of us clapped!

‘I wish to travel to different places’
‘I want to build a home where I could live with my children and my husband won’t be allowed here’
‘I want to have my own home where I live on my own! And I don’t want to marry’
‘I want to build a home near ocean’
‘I want to be like you, help people and make them smile’


The circle was bubbling with positive energy, happiness and hope! These women have suffered so much, they were challenging violence on daily basis, despite that they have zeal, hope and openness!


I feel so grateful and thankful for each of these women who trusted this space to share their experience. I just hope that women understand that they are strong and they have this choice to say no to violence even if that person is their husband, son or any relative. It is not okay for anyone to raise their hands to express anger or any frustration.     



Friday 22 November 2019

Demystifying the facade of 'gender sensitive police': Difficult conversations and challenges to engage on gender issues


“Mam, I just want to make one thing very clear. People here are graduates, post graduates and have cleared PCS and some of them are PhD's, if all this education hasn’t made them gender sensitive then you or any other person can’t change their mindsets however you wish to try ”

‘It seems like you are trying to emphasis that we are not gender sensitive! We are very much aware of gender. This sort of workshop should be implemented on villagers or people from low economic background because they don’t understand gender discrimination and causes violence! Why don’t you educate them?’

It seems you are trying to project that women are victims that all bad things happen to them? That’s not true, reality has change! Speaking about human values, what about men’s rights! What about the laws where men’s rights are totally ignored, why don’t you raise your voice for that?’


You keep talking about how police should be made gender sensitive, don’t you think Police is already burdened with the work and public has so many unreasonable expectations from the Police. I would advise you to hold camps for general public to educate them to be sensitive while reporting to Police and telling them the real situation. It’s not like we are superman who would wave the hands and catch the culprit! ’

When I was invited to conduct gender sensitization program with Bhopal Police, I was extremely pumped up, bubbling with so much enthusiasm and so excited because these participants would be placed as CSP in the different Police stations in Madhya Pradesh. Imagine a police station where leadership position is occupied by someone who understands gender discrimination, who could be sensitive to people’s issues and can provide support to GBV victims! With this objective, we planned to engage them keeping in mind that their identity is not restricted to their position as Police personnel but as people in the society who faces the brunt and challenges of being Police!


The first interaction with the participants was a huge setback to my enthusiasm and hope because unlike the expectation from people in uniform, they arrived the workshop space leisurely without giving a damn to schedule and the response was ‘Police is assumed to arrive late at the crime scene!’ or ‘first let the crime happen, then only police arrives’ – I was surprised by their behavior, I am never against a good humor but using the most judgmental statement to cover up your doing made me think that this engagement would be challenging enough. There was this reluctance and strong resistance to the proceedings of the session right from the very beginning – when they are asked to engage in a group activity: they simply wrote their individual experience and passed on to the others avoiding a simple interaction within the group. I won’t deny that the conversations that came out from the activity were very crucial and genuine but they clearly weren’t comfortable letting their own colleagues get glimpse of their live; there was strong sense of mistrust.


I have worked with so many adolescents, women, young people and Police in past, but I have never came across bunch of people who behaved like millennial that seemed more focused on their own selves, concerned about chai and samosa and throw tantrums like kids who aren’t given candies! I could see that they were carrying masks, didn’t want to real share their own experience but the point is gender is not about others, it’s about oneself – until you find the straight connection, you would never consider it as problematic! Why because it’s not your issue! It’s someone else’ problem – and unfortunately having position of Police, you are expected to solve crimes that includes GBV so here goes the loop. But their facade slipped while we engaged on gender differences that are experienced in different spaces of life: home, workplace, education, media, religion and public spaces. It was interesting to see that here they no longer behaved like gender sensitive police participants but as people who encounter gender discrimination or are part of differential behavior based on gender and sexuality. The look of disgust while talking about homosexual relationships or transgender gave a glimpse of their hidden mindset.   

However the entire facade busted while engaging on Gender based violence statements; the way male participants got angry and started yelling on statements like ‘Cooking is for women’ ‘Men can force themselves on their wives’ ‘It’s because women wear modern clothes, they get rapped’ – initially everyone gave a very balanced and nice answers but on probing they became the voices of society that dictates that what women should do or wear or how family’s honor depends on her! I was appalled as to how consent of the wife is taken for granted or not even acknowledged just because she is married. And they had the audacity to hide behind law but on being reminded of basic human rights – they attacked me and questioned my values for not standing with men? I don’t understand one thing – whenever we talk about violence against women or basic women rights why men form these groups and starts shouting about men’s rights and #notallmen, but I never said that all the men, all I wanted was them to acknowledge that with the kind of society, women are never given a choice and many a times they don’t even know that they have a choice! How difficult it is for people to understand this basic thing? And I can understand this, when people aren’t aware of gender but with the people who constantly ramble about being gender sensitive and inclusive it is bothersome!

This session also had a very interesting twist, when we spoke about ‘men can’t cry’ or ‘men who do household chores are not real men’ received support from both male and female participants. To be honest it was more of ladies who advocated that this is violence and men shouldn’t have to go through this and it received no resistance. I was not surprised because this is what happens in real life, everyone seems to be so protective of men but the moment you say women all hell breaks loose! What was even more sad was the same women participants who agree that they had no choice but to learn cooking and many other things as part of growing up didn’t really thing that this is discrimination and it is something that is easily negotiated in this progressive world. I wish to know that fancy world where they live because the kind of society I come from, everything comes with a struggle (considering I am from National Capital of India).

The thing that I won’t be able to forget for long was this role play that one of the group prepared where a rape victim comes to Police station for help. They were amazing and especially the boy who played the role of rape victim was so on point, unfortunately the entire group erupted into laughter! It was a breaking point for me- the whole scenario was callous, unforgivable and extremely disastrous! These are the people who would be leading police stations in a span of 2 months who are laughing at rape victim? Atrocious and shameful! No wonder people have so many judgments about police personnel. Although few of them came next day apologizing for their behavior and giving an excuse that they laughed because of the person who was acting and not because he was rape victim! Honestly I failed to get the logic behind this, and it reminded me of the recent rape case where a SP was caught laughing during a press conference in Bhopal.


If this was the experience on first day, second day was even more challenging – the objective for the day was to engage them in self work, to give time for them to interact with their own self considering how much they have to engage with violence in everyday life and then connecting it with their role as Police. But as soon as the activity started, they started showing discomfort and deflecting the situation; some of them even laughed at the ones who were genuinely trying to understand and take part in the activity.

‘What do we get out from this activity? What are the fruits or profit out of it? My personal life is no one’s business, if I wish to talk about my issues then I will talk about it to my near and dear ones and not with these people.’

‘There are things that we can’t even share with our parents or partners or husband/wives; why would I share here! I don’t trust them! Also this won’t help me as police which is my job!’

‘How sharing here will help solve my problems? Can any of them or you tell me solutions? No and why would I hear your suggestions? We have our image that we need to maintain and I wouldn’t tarnish it for any workshop. What would these people think about me? And what if they share this outside?’

This was interesting because we never asked them to share their deep dark secrets or issues with the group, it was invitation to share any experience from your life! Though this flared up so much that for about 1 hour I was surrounded by 20 people questioning, interrogating, charging and throwing accusations at me. I have never experienced so much negativity but at that point I answered every question which irked them even more. If patriarchy had a physical appearance, power was in form of a weapon, then invariably I felt like the target. What was even more amusing was the reaction of female participants!

‘We are very gender sensitive group. Here I have never seen boys dominating girls; in fact in our group, it’s the girls who dominate boys!’

While we were playing the game of wolf and sheep; as always they weren’t being very serious about it so they let go of the girl who volunteered as sheep without any resistance; then they kept shouting and yelling at the boy who became sheep next time stating that this is how wolves react. The next time, they kept asking me to volunteer as sheep, and I did. So when I succeeded in escaping the circle, I heard men saying ‘Damn it, how did you let her go! We could have easily trapped her’. Interesting trying to do actual violence with me – nope I am not that easy!


Following this, a very small incident happened where I asked one of the participant to not do something because he was constantly disturbing the group. Before the said participant and I could interact, one of the girl jumped in between and started accusing me of being finicky and asked do they have to ask to breathe too so that you are not disturbed! I could only laugh at that accusation.

The constant remark that we should be giving them solution as to make police force better and gender sensitive was wonderful! I was not there to give them advise or solutions but to make them understand and question the existent system of discrimination and patriarchy. When I said the same thing, one of the girls got angry and said, “If you can’t give us solution, then why are you here, it’s not like we don’t understand gender! We are very sensitive about it; it is illiterate people who need gender sensitivity” Yes, hilarious enough because a gender activist or to say a common person will teach you how to do your duty? Isn’t that something that is taught to you in your training or how in the world you cleared the exam!

So, taking their concerns, frustrations, accusations and complaints we engaged with them on what it means to be a police and what are the challenges they face being Police? This was most interactive and peaceful session – why? Because we were asking about their problems – they listed more than 50 of them complaining lack of man power, finances, hierarchy, technical advancements, expectations of public, solving crime is their job but it leads to personal rivalry, extremely difficult working hours, poor image of police created by media, lack of holidays/off days, too much training and many others! It was like a dam being opened which was refusing to be sealed. While I do agree and empathize that some of the problems are very important and need to be addressed but the crucial point is none of these participants were ever posted in any Police station so without being on ground they were talking about problems! Also weren’t they aware of all this, while they sat for the exam to be in Police? This is the hypocrisy in colorful words because we as people don’t want to take responsibilities rather complain about situations; in this case they haven’t even faced these situations. When I pointed out this tiny fact, the entire room went silent.

I took this opportunity to bring very crucial point into light that it is important for us to figure out solutions to the present situation rather than keep complaining about things because it is us who can do it, problems will not solve themselves. Do we have capacity to do that or do we want to be in spiral of complaining about issues?

Though the 2 day intervention was challenging in so many ways, I could see disruption in the pseudo gender sensitive mindsets, a chaos that was making them question their own beliefs and yes a huge ripple in the calm waters of patriarchal and power driven thoughts.


‘I wanted to come and speak to you at the end of the workshop. I am so so inspired by you and the way you engaged with us on the most sensitive issues that our society doesn’t even want to acknowledge. I want to be like you, and I am so moved by your determination – when all 25 of us were questioning and throwing tantrums you stood on your ground and didn’t move from your intention. I wish girls can be like this. Trust me each of us are rattled and you will be tormenting our minds for long long time!’

‘Mam, trust me this is the most interesting conversation I ever had on gender issues! All the seminars start from the podium and end there, but you took a big leap and tried to enter our well- guarded mindsets and facade! Never met someone so determined!’

And so yes I think something will change from all these conversations!